“I was definitely aware of the fact that I was being portrayed … as this ‘Lolita’ figure,” she told Shepard. “Being sexualized as a child, I think took away from my own sexuality because it made me afraid, and it made me [feel] like the way I could be safe was to be like, ‘I’m conservative,’ and ‘I’m serious and you should respect me,’ and ‘I’m smart,’ and ‘don’t look at me that way.’”

The Oscar winner, who turned 39 this year, continued, “Whereas at that age, you do have your own sexuality and you do have your own desire, and you do want to explore things and you do want to be open. But you don’t feel safe, necessarily, when there’s older men that are interested, and you’re like, ‘No, no, no, no.’” Related Todd Haynes’ ‘May December’ with Natalie Portman and Julianne Moore Wraps Production Natalie Portman’s ‘Lady in the Lake’ Stops Baltimore Production After Gun Violence Threats, Extortion Attempt Related Oscars 2023: Remarkable Transformations Lead the Way in Makeup and Hairstyling The 13 Best Slasher Movies Ever Made, from ‘Candyman’ to ‘Psycho’
Portman also said that she had to put up “fortresses” to protect herself at such a young age. That meant drawing a line on doing certain kinds of roles and projects. Portman became a sensation in her teens with “Star Wars: Episode I – The Phantom Menace.” “So many people had this impression of me that I was super serious and conservative … and I realized I consciously cultivated that because it was always to make me feel safe,” she said. “Like, ‘Oh, if someone respects you, they’re not gonna objectify you.’” Portman said that the defense mechanism ultimately worked, adding, “When I was in my teens I was like, ‘I don’t wanna have any love scenes or make-out scenes,’” Portman recalled. “I would start choosing parts that were less sexy because it made me worried about the way I was perceived and how safe I felt.” Portman previously opened up about her experiences as a child actress at the 2018 Women’s March, specifically the “sexual terrorism” she experienced while making “The Professional.” “I excitedly opened my first fan mail to read a rape fantasy that a man had written me,” Portman said in the speech. “I understood very quickly, even as a 13-year-old, that if I were to express myself sexually, I would feel unsafe.” Listen to the podcast with Dax Shepard here. Sign Up: Stay on top of the latest breaking film and TV news! Sign up for our Email Newsletters here.